The one place where I can say my opinion.

sourpatch6709 @ 2006-11-20T19:01:00

2006-11-20T19:01:15Z

I saw Sharon yesterday. That made my day. Practice was brutal. I love sabre but its so frustrating. I think Christina got me to change my mind. I might transfer next year.

sourpatch6709 @ 2006-10-31T02:10:00

2006-10-31T02:17:14Z

i like him alot. But I am too scared to have a relationship. I think i like this whole friends with benefits thing. if thats even what we are doing. I think thats what we are doing. i hate life.

classes..

2006-08-01T20:41:04Z

so i registered at uccc today. I'm taking 5 classes. Tues and thurs are going to be the most stressful with the hardest classes. :( I still have to hand in my immunization forms and finish financial aid. goshhh.
I need a car. I need a job.
Seeing John Tucker must die tonight with lily.

sourpatch6709 @ 2006-07-24T21:23:00

2006-07-25T01:23:56Z

I'm so nervous for tomorrow.

Dayton..Drama..Spring Break

2006-04-11T01:13:07Z

Dayton ohio=best time of my life.
Matt's my prom date and i am really excited because he is so much fun.
I was surrounded by hot gay guys the whole week and i loved it.
We did awesome at our competition. Mrs. Avossa cried and ah it was so beautiful.
"Boot girl" is annoying the fuck out of me. Get your fuckin story straight.
Emanon's show makes me so sad. Its so beautiful. World guards were amazing, their work is breathtaking. Avon's performance and Fantasia's and Northern Lights omg amazing! We went miniature golfing with Apex and Bpex. They are so funny. "I am a boy." haha. so many jokes from Dayton. watering arm..that one right there...hot guys, hot gay guys..I love you girls so much.... Can't wait for the party!!!!!

wowwwwwwwwww

2006-02-03T21:56:26Z

First real best friend: jayme
Last real Best friend: amy

First school: myer
Last School: KHS

First Cell phone: verizon
Last cell phone: virgin mobile

First funeral: grandmother
Last funeral: grandma briggs

First pet: crackerjack
Last pet: lana, baby, zach and crackerjack

First big trip? florida
Last big trip? nj

First flight: florida when i was little
Last flight: florida for band

First celebrity love: prob justin timberlake
Last celebrity love: james franco

First time out of the country: big red boat cruise
Last time out of the country: big red boat cruise

First job: babysitting/camp counselor
Last job: same

First MySpace friend: kerry
Last Myspace friend: grace

First person of the opposite sex that you talked to: my dad
Last person of the opposite sex that you talked to: jared

Everyone has their LASTS.

Last item bought: candy bar

Last shirt worn: my flower cami

Last phone call: amanda

Last text message: ashley

Last thing you touched: mouse

Last time at the mall: today

Last time you were excited: today

Last person you saw: kerry

Last thing you drank: water

Last thing you typed: "haha i have a gift card for the mall and zero for the present and dinnner"

Last Person that broke your Heart: hmmmm

Last time you were really honestly Happy: thats hard.

2006

2006-01-01T05:04:49Z

Its official. Graduation year has finally come. 6 mos and goodbye high school. Am i ready? I have done nothing for college. no applications, no SAT's, no license, no job. i hate this year already.

bored.

2005-12-17T18:44:02Z

stolen form alicia
Instructions: Take the first sentence (or 2) from the first post of each month of 2005. Thats your year in review. (Author's notes from the current time are in bold).

JANUARY
Happy New Year!! Last night was so much fun at jens party!!
Yeah that was kind of a fun night. I cant believe a year has passed again!

FEBRUARY
Tonight Amy invited me to go bowling.
One of the worse nights ever. She got mad at me because i wouldnt skate. Boy.

MARCH
So nothing exciting has been happening. I am just trying to figure out what to do for next year.
I am still trying to figure out what to do and nothing exciting still hasnt happened!

APRIL
Wow. i havent updated in awhile. Antioch weekend was great.
that was a fun weekend. But the fall was one better.

MAY
NYSSMA sucked. I did bad and the judge gave everybody in that room really low scores.
Thank god no nyssma for me this year. I hated it.

JUNE
Mick gave me a really nice compliment this morning. It brightened my day up. I love him.
I dont remember the compiment but mick always brightens up my day and i still love him.

JULY
I am 17. I don't feel any different. When you really think about 17 isn't really special
still do not feel different. fuck.

AUGUST
I cracked.........FUCK!!!!!!!
HAHAHAHAH. I cracked on reading Harry Potter. lmao.

SEPTEMBER
Semester 1:
Per. 1 civics rm 108
Per. 2 college french 2 rm 007
Per. 3 pre calc rm 504
Per. 4 College writing
Per. 5 Gym BDF
Per. 5 Open ACE
Per. 6 Health rm 101
Per. 7 band
Per. 8 coll env bio rm 305
Semester 2;
Per 1 civics
Per 2 french
Per 3 pre calc
Per 4 Gym ACE
Per 4 Open BDF
Per 5 Eng 12B rm 210
Per 6 Lunch
per 7 band
per 8 science
Still hate my schedule.

OCTOBER
I want to write what i am feeling. If i do, someone can read it.
I'll just say this...
I feel so ALONE.
still feel that way. wow i do not change.fuckers.

NOVEMBER
How? How can I say goodbye to my passion. It breaks my heart to have to do this.
I DIDNT HAVE TO SAY GOODBYE TO MY PASSION AFTER ALL!!!!!!!

DECEMBER
I have a crush.........
I DO!!!!!!!!!

sourpatch6709 @ 2005-12-17T13:38:00

2005-12-17T18:38:25Z

I have a crush.........

Procrastinator = me

2005-11-26T23:32:05Z

I still havent even touched my midterm for college writing and its due monday. Same with my field study for bio but its due friday. Tomorrow I tell Mrs. Avossa i wont be doing QED. Lord give me strength for that. Um yeah i realized i havent even picked out my senior pic. I have all of the proofs to pick from. When are they due for the yearbook? Watch i miss the deadline.
Something is wrong with me. I wont do anything for college, it is almost like i dont even want to go but i do want to go.
The funeral was lovely and i cried like a baby.

Updating for real.

2005-11-23T21:18:09Z

Antioch Weekend....AMAZING! I had so much fun. The best weekend ever. Commitment.. To not clam up/get quite when i am in a different/unfamiliar surrounding or when i am uncomfortable. I can do it.
I am quitting QED(winter colorguard)so i can get a job. I have job applications for old navy, pacsun, and ny&company. I want pacsun or ny&company. Once i get a job i can save for a car and get a cell phone. Then it is all going to the Rachel Cline College Fund. Yes that is right, I have to pay for college on my own. But that is good for me. Finally got me to get my butt off the couch to go look for jobs and stuff. Get my life together. Hopefully. Harry Potter=AMAZZZZZZZZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I lovedddddddddd it. holy crap it was great.

Oh my cousin's grandmother(she was a grandmother to me) died. Her funeral is thanksgiving morning. i love her.

How do you say 'Goodbye' to the thing you love?

2005-11-21T21:06:18Z

How? How can I say goodbye to my passion. It breaks my heart to have to do this.

sourpatch6709 @ 2005-10-30T10:58:00

2005-10-30T15:59:48Z

ALICIA. WHATS MR.VOERG'S EMAIL? MY PRINTER ISNT WORKING SO I AM GOING TO SEND IT TO HIM. UM EMAIL ME STARSANDMOONS488@AOL.COM

Shitfuckbitch

2005-10-17T00:38:39Z

I hate life. i feel so bad for mike. That is just plain horrible. I dont have a best friend anymore. I dont know what me and kerry are. I hate rifle. I am so upset from it. Its my last year and she gets a fucking toss. The only thing thats been good out of these last few days is: I love matt johnson. and that Erin is doing QED.

sourpatch6709 @ 2005-10-08T13:48:00

2005-10-08T17:52:44Z

I want to write what i am feeling. If i do, someone can read it.

I'll just say this...
I feel so ALONE.

He was surprised that I remembered him.

2005-09-27T00:43:47Z

My Uncle Mike who I have not seen in 10 years is coming back to the US. He was in the army or something and I talked to him on the phone for like 5 mins. He was surprised that my parents got a divorce and I started crying when he asked what happened. But i think I am going to write about him for college writing. The question was "if you were given the oppurtinity to spend an evening with anyone person, living, deceased, or ficitonal whom would u choose and why?". I was talking to Mick about it today and i was first saying like my soulmate but now its Mike.

sourpatch6709 @ 2005-09-17T10:43:00

2005-09-17T14:43:47Z

I think its so cute that Wendell and Paisley go out.

I am doing so great right now.

2005-09-15T23:14:40Z

I just got hit by a metal baseball bat by my 8 yr old brother who also called me a bitch and motherfucker.

oh and my mom said i was a bag of shit.

sourpatch6709 @ 2005-09-10T14:14:00

2005-09-10T18:20:37Z

You think i love you, but deep down inside you make me sick.

Thursday night....

2005-09-09T23:45:54Z

My moms "boyfriend", well she doesnt call him her boyfriend, is taking me and my siblings and my mom out for pizza. They have only been on ONE date. I thinking i am going to be sick.

Feels like another meltdown is coming.

First day of my senior year......

2005-09-07T21:10:13Z

Homeroom: We got 5 new people so its kind of big now. But i still love my hr.
Civics...I dont know anyone in it. And the teacher likes to do group work a lot. Im screwed. But it seems like a fun class. College writing..there is like noone in it. Tony is in it but he wants to drop it. :( I HATE my health class. Its all of these immature boys. I am the only senior. I hate it. I am in fucking concert band aka the good band. HOW the hell did that happen? I hate it. I want to be in the other band with alex. I left her. I feel so bad. I am going to have to tlak to mr. garner about it. Maybe i will drop band. i could use an open. No lunch tomorrow. Now i have rifle practice. WHAT FUN! fuckin' a.

oh goodbye summmer

2005-09-06T20:13:19Z

End of Summer survey

have you changed this summer 2005? i guess so

spent the night with someone? like a sleepover? then yes

drank untill your stomach hurt? nope

laughed until you almost peed your pants? lol yes

vacation? YES!!!!

tanned? I am so tan right now.

went to a camp? band camp.

swam? uh yea i have a pool

went to the movies? yess

gone shopping? here and there

Had a job? yes. camp counselor

gotten freakishly bored? omg yes

have you gotten sun burned yes and it was bad

made a bonfire? nope, i think i am going to one tonight...

been outside during a lightning storm? yes!

Been to another state? yes, NJ

been to another country? no

changed someting about your appearance? my hair.

commited a crime/broken the law?nope

gone on a road trip? nope

gone to a concert? no :(

done something with a guy/girl this summer? nope

had a g/f or b/f and for how long? nope.

dumped a g/f or b/f? nope

kissed someone? nope

Been in trouble with the cops/parents? parent

had a memorable moment? yes

had a horrible moment? omg yes

ran from the law? NO.

lied to your parents? YES.

gotten so drunk you forgot what happened?no

smoked weed? haha, no.. was going to but didnt

snuck out? no

gone skinny dipping? no, but i went in alex's pjs

made new friends? omg yes

lost old friends? had fights but didnt lose anyone

missed a friend? yeah

gone on vacation with no parents?nope

Slept under the stars? no

thought about school? yep

been to the beach? yes...

thought about a special someone? no not really

hoped they thought about you too? i dont know

Let's see how many more i can do..........not

2005-09-06T17:55:08Z

Meltdown #2. Alex forgot to pick me up today to go to the performance at school. Its ok. I was just worried about her because it wasnt like her to forget. Jenn g. had to pick me up. So we got to the school at like 8:40. I was supposed to be there at 8. When i got into the gym they were doing the dance so i had to come in during the dance. I was confused and angry. I thought mr. avossa would have waited till i got there since jenn drove all the way from kingston to hurley to get me. But all he said to alex was "Whoops". When we were done we went back to the bandroom and i lost it. I was pissed that they didnt wait and i was upset. I had another meltdown. I wasnt angry at alex for forgetting. I was just angry that i got there way late and i had to come in during the dance.
School tomorrow. I sort of have my outfit. I dont know anyone in my gym class or my lunch per, or health or pre calc. It should be interesting.

It's times like these where ..

2005-09-05T20:03:43Z

..i wish my dad still lived with us. If he did, things would of course be different. My brother wouldnt act this way, the house would be different, we could afford the bills. AND he could teach me how to drive. He is a better teacher then my mom. I drove with him today and it was the best i had ever done. He was great. Too bad the next time i will drive with him will be in like two weeks.

sourpatch6709 @ 2005-09-04T15:24:00

2005-09-04T19:25:48Z

I hate him. I hate him so much.